Responsibility

So I am now in a role im not sure I wanted. I have so much responsibility and its sucking me dry. Its hard. I have a staff of 14 and I love them to death, I am trying to keep them all happy, but its a challenge. We have so may issues at the moment because we are changing over to a new stystem and i just dont have time for them...

Life is forever challenging and I know this more now because of this job.

But on a more personal note everythings good.. Im feeling for someone im not sure is good for me though.. Like I said before, how can you ever be truly involved in someone that is aware of a world you are so completely unfamiliar with. I am finding myself questioning things already that will always be an issue.

I am surrounded at the moment by women that are very anti-men, and although I have had experiences that have hurt me, there has been so much ecstacy that I am not jaded by the bad. I love to death everyone that has touched my soul and In turn my body. How could I possibly be twisted? They mean the world, and I am a different person because of them.

Life is so very different because of them and because of every one I have ever met - What am I to do?

How do I pursue this everyday path when I have had a taste of the world that exists beyond that.. How do I go back? I want more. I am 2 weeks of 26 and Im shitting my pants, 30 aint so far away anymore..