Flow

So its been a while.. My job is going really well. Too well, somethings gotta give right. It always surprises me when things end up like this, when its so unexpected, it keeps you on your toes. Im hoplessly involved in another being and in turn it makes me vunerable. Not vunerable but exposed, and the things that are going on in my mind as a direct result of this are ridiculous and all of a sudden I am a pathetic girl again. And I am surrounded by them...

So I think about my life and again I wonder how I got here.

I have been fortunate enough to end up here. How I really did, i dont know. When I look at these people that are trying so desperately to get jobs and they are looking at me wondering how they acheive this and I cant help but think what the fuck? try harder. But then at the same time I have never looked for any of my jobs for more than one day. Perhaps I am lucky - but i doubt it.

Life changes the older you get, and what seemed important at some point ultimately becomes a position of circumstance. You go with the flow..